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I’ve a lot of dilemmas:
I can’t prevent getting Ubers
, my personal brand spanking new 26″ locks extensions are generally tangled and matted from harsh sex, and that I’m light headed 24/7 from declining to meal prep and surviving on Luna Bars. But perhaps my personal *biggest* problem, one that has me one particular shook, is I have a crush back at my ex-girlfriend’s girl.

I am aware, I am aware, it really is just like the greatest violation of
woman code,

ever before

. But it is a-v usual lesbian issue!

Charlie* met Gigi* on Tinder, as we sat hand and hand swiping with each other, our lots of queer companion traditions. Charlie was as well anxious to send the initial message, therefore after I slugged my personal vodka soda back, we got the woman cellphone and messaged Gigi. “You appear cool. Want to get products?”

The following day, Charlie also known as myself at 4 am after their very first time. She was actually at the top of dialogue and pricey drink. She had it wrong immediately.

As I met Charlie, I understood precisely why.
I happened to be at Stonewall with GO executive publisher Zara Barrie along with her fiancee Meghan
. We had been roughly 6 drinks deeply, and yelling YASSSS at everybody and every thing. I then identified their.

The woman is those types of magnetically beautiful lesbians that

not one person

is immune to. Like, that you don’t have even to get queer to want to f*ck this girl (it’s already been confirmed by my right roomie).

Gigi had been wearing a leather bodysuit and thigh large boots. She’s got a disheveled platinum blond pixie slice and an impossibly symmetric face. This lady has male electricity it is femininely stunning. She becomes any person around their a drink.

“this is certainly Gigi!!!!!!!” Charlie slurred, dangling on to the two of us.

“Let’s carry out shots!” Gigi mentioned, chuckling. I was so intoxicated by how hot these were together I totally forgot I found myself clutching a collection of free of charge drink tickets. We slugged right back the tequila, feeling it warm my esophagus and had among those drunk “I favor my good friend therefore f*cking a lot” moments. Charlie felt therefore truly happy, therefore comfy. Though I definitely discovered the woman girlfriend hot AF, i discovered my pal’s delighted power more critical. Then again, Gigi’s sternum tat would peek between the woman cleavage, or she’d efficiently shake her sides, or she’d reach my personal shoulder, or have a look at myself with her smoldering blue eyes and I also’d have the vagina flutters.

We went out once more the other night (
, holla) and seeing Gigi and Charlie kiss made me think,

ugh, i would like that.

Despite the reality i really do contain it? I found myself with a girl i am online dating and now we happened to be just as around one another as Charlie and Gigi, or even more. I found myself putting on corset leggings, making it extremely convenient to get ~naughty~ on dancing flooring, once you learn what I mean. But also Ryan*, your ex i am witnessing was actually like, “wow him or her and her gf are really hot.” They truly are one among those hot ass swag lesbian lovers that everyone can not help but end up being shook by.

Would it be socially appropriate for us to feel keen on my ex-girlfriend’s girl? No. Could it possibly be against buddy signal? Yes. Would it be totally regular, though? Yes. Humans are unpleasant, and sometimes our thoughts are messy. Everything I believe for her is similar momentary interest I believe towards every hot lesbian we experience — the destination that reminds me personally that I’m human being, the destination that reminds myself i’m the gayest individual ever. The attraction that reminds myself because
someone is not allowed
, or because you’re matchmaking somebody, does not mean that standard real person reactions to hot people go-away.

Everything I perform is actually glance at the situation actually. Confess it: i believe my ex-girlfriend’s girl is actually hot, large f*cking package — thus does everybody. Therefore I are unable to make out together (one, I would never do this as well as 2, the woman is sickly obsessed about my good friend). And then I can consider it similar to this: i will be therefore fortunate for a queer companion (albeit my personal ex-girlfriend, #lesbianproblems) and an extra swaggy hot lez to your queer lady team. I am happy for her because she actually is beautiful inside and outside, and deserves a hot big ass girlfriend. Its amazing how progressed possible come to be if you simply enable you to ultimately acknowledge exactly how petty and immature you often initially feel.

Becoming friends with other queer females, within the queerest towns in the world, this lez-overlap is likely to happen.  Groups of hot lesbians will spend time, destinations are going to be considered. One should be ready to maintain their particular concerns when this occurs. Usually, a friendship is way more vital than a fleeting destination. My ex-girlfriend’s sweetheart is hot, her next girlfriend can be, my after that gf would be, my personal ex-girlfriend’s subsequent girl is going to be. Oahu is the lesbian circle of existence.